The Truth Behind the Facade

Hello, my darling friends.

I shared this video (with the egregious freezy face) on Facebook tonight and from the emails I got it seemed to help some people through their own hard times. So, I thought I’d post it here too.

Miss you all so much! Tons of love…

For those of you who suffer…mentally…physically or both, this is for you.

This is me at my most vulnerable and sharing something I NEVER thought I’d share, but it’s important for me to let everyone else who is in pain, in whatever way, know that you are not alone. I am here for you. Call me. Text me. Email me. Cry, scream, vent or sit in silence on the phone with me. We can watch a movie together over the phone. If you need someone who understands your fear, your anger, your pain, your desperation, your exhaustion…I’m here.

God bless and much love to you all, including the amazing people who help take care of us during our darkest hours. Your job is so very hard and so very appreciated. Love you all!


PS: What a HIDEOUS FREEZY-FACE! Really, they couldn’t pick something that looked even slightly less stupid???? πŸ˜‰

20 comments on “The Truth Behind the Facade

      • When I first saw this and commented, I didn’t realise it was a video. I have just watched it, and I must say, not only are you an awesome Jedi, you are brave as well. I don’t think I could have done that.

        I do know where you are coming from. I see a physiotherapist every week in an attempt to get me out of the house again. I have set foot outside three times in a year, and I am only recently not using my wheelchair every day.

        There is always hope. There are always smiles.

        Remember, if the light at the end of the tunnel turns out to be someone with a torch, they may well be there to lead you out.

        Thank you for sharing this, Jedi.

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        • Oh honey…I am so deeply sorry you are facing such trials. That breaks my heart. Please know that I will be praying for you to heal in body, heart and spirit. I wish I could help, but know I am sending my love.

          And thank you so much for the kind words. Being called brave is about the biggest compliment anyone could ever give someone, and it means the absolute world to me.

          I posted the vidoe because so many of my friends right now are going through such trauma and I wanted them to know they aren’t alone.

          People often think of my life as just this great day to day bit of heaven, and while it is beautiful in so many ways, it is also been excruciatingly painful, physically and mentally, for seven straight months. I’ve never had a day without pain since all this mess began. And I know so many other people, now you included, who can sometimes feel like they’re the only ones going through it because of the seclusion and all of the fear. So I just wanted to tell everybody that they aren’t alone, that I’m right there with them, and that I’ll hold their hand whenever they need it.

          Same goes for you, sweetheart. We may live across the pond from each other but you can always email me and I will email you right back as soon as I can. I can be a long-distance shoulder for you.

          Thanks again for being so precious and I hope that you do better and better every day. Much love.

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  1. I think how ever the river flows we must always continue rowing our boats so too speak. Between my swollen feet which keep me from getting out and about as I used to and the terrible side effects from the diurectics.
    Namely muscular spasms from the hell’s bells place. I have started on Dandelion root and am drinking enough water to float a barge.
    Keep up your positive outlook and you are beautiful,open and honest.Great qualities.


  2. I’m so far out of the loop with what’s been going on (hardly able to keep up with wordpress, facebook, twitter).

    Jodi, sweetheart, I had no idea you wer going through all this. You have always been so sweet and kind to everyone. I know it doesn’t change things but I think you are a wonderful & beautiful person. My thoughts & prayers are with you.


    • Honey…you just warmed my heart. I’ve hardly blogged anything since the surgery in January. Every single day has been full of physical pain, from excruciating to just ouchieness, and my mind has just been getting more and more overwhelmed. I’ve barely left the house since January except for doctor appointments and I’m starting to go stir crazy and just depressed from all of the constant poking, prodding, scalpels, stitches, staples, surgeries, broken bones…and now baldness and a bunch of extra pounds from not being able to DO anything but sit on my ass for 7.5 months. It’s taking quite the toll.

      Thank you so much for your constant sweetness and your words mean EVERYTHING to me. Thank you so much for the kindness, the thoughts and the prayers. They are what has gotten me through all of this mess. TONS OF HUGS AND LOVE!!! XOXOXOXO

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  3. Hey sweetheart!
    First of all, please, PLEASE forgive me for not having responded before today. I really do not have much of an excuse except that I have stepped away from my blog for a few weeks. I have posted a couple of times but for the most part, I am not really commenting much or reading. EXCEPT for yours and a few others. I kept your post in my Inbox until I could open it and read what it said and watch the video. OMG!! Jodi… sweet Jodi…. I am SO sorry you have been through such hell for the last few months. And your beautiful hair?? Bless your heart. I have the greatest admiration for your courage to make the video. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it has all been.
    I think of you often and you would cross my mind each time I would see your name in my email. So again, my deepest apologies for just now getting to you.

    Second, I will continue prayers for you dearest. I know that God can heal anyone and anything and whatever you are going through. You will get through this with the love of your friends, family and your sweet hubby. What an awesome guy to be there for you through all of this. God will give you the strength you need and I look forward to hearing all about your recovery because we all know that day will come.

    Third and most important! GET WELL SOON! You are beautiful, strong, brave and awesome and perfect in so many ways! Keep taking care of you! I will drop you an email with my info so we can stay in touch! LOVE YOU!!! 😘 ❀ πŸ˜šπŸ˜β€πŸ’™πŸ’πŸ’ŸπŸ‘ŒπŸ’˜


    • You are just so precious. I’ve hardly been on my blog either, so no worries about not responding sooner. I’ve been on blog hiatus!

      Thank you for the kindness about the hell it’s been since January. I’ve never had a worse year (and there have been plenty that SUCKED!!!). πŸ™‚

      Losing the hair was really hard. After so many surgeries, so much constant pain, broken bones, terror, failed organs, collapsed lungs, severe sepsis, and all the other shit, to then lose almost all my hair AND gain weight? What the fuckadoodledoo????? Complete suckage. Thanks for understanding that making that video wasn’t easy…but I wanted others who are going through similar things to know that they are NOT alone. Feeling alone while going through all this sucks, and not that I ever want anyone to go through what I have, I know there are plenty of people suffering as bad and way worse. I wanted them to know I am right there with them–virtually holding their hand.

      You couldn’t be more right when you say God can heal anyone. I NEVER could have gotten through this without the prayers of all my friends and family. By the time they got me back to the hospital, my body was already shutting down. I KNOW God held my hand and got me through it. I am so very, deeply blessed.

      I only have one more surgery I have to get and then hopefully all of this fuckin’ hell will be over. I’d love to start 2018 in no pain. That would so kick ass!!!

      I hope you are well, my dear. You always bring me such joy and such a big smile. I thank God for you all the time.

      MUCH LOVE and tons of hugs and kisses!!!!! XOXOXOXXO


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