Pre-surgical update (From HELL!) ;)

First and foremost, thanks so much to all of you for your wonderful prayers praying-kittenand well wishes. It means the world to me.

Surgery is in 19 hours and to be quite frank, I’m a wee bit scared. So any additional prayers or healthy vibes you guys can send up would be so appreciated!

After getting some more tests (thank God all the blood work came back great! Yay!) my doc said that she didn’t feel comfortable just having a surgical assistant in with her since (this is not a direct quote but is pretty much what she said), “My insides are so fucking fucked.”  😉 So, she’s having a second surgeon join her in the operating room.freaky-kitty

Yeah, she was far more delicate than that, awesome doc that she is, but that was the jist.

Seems as though all my prior surgeries have made everything such an adhesion-covered mess that they could not even SEE my ovaries during the internal ultrasound (read that as being viciously fucked by a cattle prod…ouchy!!!), they found 8 tumors and tons of uterine muscle lesions. Plus, with my last cattle prod adventure, they told me my bowel had grown into my left ovary and now share a blood supply.

I guess it’s good that my innards all get along so well…they place nice together! 😉grumpy-cat-no

Anyway, it looks like this is going to likely be a complicated mess and while my doc is still hopeful and is going to peek at everything first by putting a little camera in my bellybutton (which is seriously like 9 feet deep!) and looking around, she thinks it’ll probably end up being an open surgery. OUCH!

And she’s going to go in through my old zipper incisions, which is good in that I’ve already been opened up there 3 times already, but bad in that vertical incisions take so much longer to heal and they hurt like a mo fo.

I’m doing my very best to prepare everything for the smoothest recovery possible and trying VERY hard to keep all my fears to myself as not to scare my family as I’m sure they are nervous enough, but I had to get it out somewhere. Being opened up like this a 4th time is truly terrifying, even though I’m an old pro at it.

Surgery is a 7:30 on Tuesday and luckily I’ll be at a great hospital, Scottsdale Shea, that has a great reputation, so, I’d be so very thankful, from the bottom of my heart, for any extra love you can send my way around that time.

Much love to all of you!!! XOXOXXO

Oh, and I’ve decided to bring two teddies with me! Gotta have critters to cuddle! 😉

Kicking Ovarian Cancer’s Ass

My life is filled with so many blessings from God and this is at the top of my list right now. My aunt, when she was 30, was at home in Baltimore and her breast exploded. It turned out she had end-stage breast cancer and the doctors had no hope of her ever recovering. Well, she taught them all that she wasn’t ready to die yet and with much prayer and strength she went into remission for 32 years. What an incredible miracle.

About 3 months ago she found out she had ovarian cancer that had spread into her stomach and other areas. The doctors had no hope, yet again. The cancer was so advanced and the tumors so profound that when she went into surgery for a full hysterectomy that they, literally, could not even cut through her to get to her uterus, etc…and had to terminate the surgery. We, her family, were devastated. My aunt is a wonderful woman who’s been through more trauma in her life then I can even begin to fathom and to have this come up on her so fast and to have an expectation that she would die any day was just too much to bear for all of us.

She was unable to eat, barely able to walk, and physically declining every day. But, being the trooper that she is, she decided to go ahead with chemo and now, 3 months later, her doctors are simply astonished by her improvement. It is another miracle. After 3 chemo treatments her tumors have responded so well that after her next treatment they are going to go in and re-attempt the hysterectomy. Once they remove her internal girl-parts, they’re going to finish the last few treatments and expect that she could go into full remission.

It’s simply incredible. We spent the 2 weeks after we found out about the cancer calling funeral homes and cemeteries in order to be best prepared for her passing, but she was NOT done with life yet!!! It’s just amazing to me that she has the stamina, strength and determination to beat end-stage cancer TWICE!!!

She’s not totally out of the woods yet and prayers would be so very appreciated, but the future is no longer grim–there could be a happy ending after all.

My aunt is my hero today as she chooses to beat the challenges that jump into her path with dignity, bravery and love. For that, I’ll always be thankful to her. Go Aunt Margie!